About

About me…what about me…?  What about me??

I found myself asking that at least once a day for the past eight years.  What about me??  For way too long, I’ve been completely engrossed in everyone else.  Being a stay-at-home mom, barely by choice, my life has consistently meant putting myself on the back burner in the name of family.  Can’t go to school, childcare’s too pricey.  Can’t work, baby’s too sick.  Do the laundry, wash the dishes, pick up toys, wipe butts, unsuccessfully clean stains, fail homework, hide in the bathroom for two minutes of ‘alone’ time as the kids knock on the door and beg to come in.

Who am I, you may ask?  Well, to put it simply, if I knew that I wouldn’t be here right now.  For eight years, I have not been my own person, but in fact an extension of those around me.  I can define myself with others, but not on my own.  I am my husband’s wife.  I am my children’s mother.  I am my mother’s daughter.  But if you take all those people away, I am….?

I can’t define it.

But now I’m going to try.  I like to take photographs and use Photoshop.  I like to paint and draw.  I like to cook good food with quality ingredients.  I like to play video games.  I like to (sometimes) save money by DIY’ing my entire house.  Do any of these things define who I am?  Maybe all of them combined?

As my youngest child embarks on his newer adventure, school, and I’m gifted 6 hours a day of…freedom…how will I use that time to get back to who I am, define who I am, and learn more about me?

I guess only time will tell.

  XOXO Kitty